DAARRRYYYYLLL.

Come back to me

2011-01-14T15:23:00.001+08:00

I'm so sorry for controlling you, for not making you happy too. I'm ready for a change, i'm ready for a leap. But you're not, because you've changed, you've someone better than me, you're happier without me...

Questions.

2010-11-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

There are always many questions in Life that nobody would be able to answer. Obviously, I have many questions i would want to ask, but i don't know who i should ask.

Why did Darren go away so soon? He hasn't fulfilled many things. I still look at your photo every night before I sleep. Even when i board a bus i would see your face because there's a photo of you in my card holder whereever i go. Why? Why did you have to go. I really feel that i lost a part of my life. Sometimes, there is just a feeling i would feel, have you really left us?

From time to time, the feeling of you leaving us and the fact that i cannot accept, strucks me. It's horrible, because nobody would be there for me again. Sigh..

Am i really such a bad person? I know i'm quiet, but it's not like i want it to be like this. I know i'm not likeable. Because i know i have a kiam pa bin and i don't talk much. I don't like to mingle with people. I know i'm controlling you, but put yourselves in my shoes. Why don't people ever think for me? And people just expect me to think for them. Why?

Why do people just have to listen to stories and not bother to find out about the fact?
I'm really tired, i don't know if i can still take all of these, i'm sorry.

A part of Life

2010-11-15T21:45:00.003+08:00

Dear Darren,

Where are you now?! Its been 2 weeks since you fell asleep and you haven't visited me in my dreams. You want liao is it? Well, school has been mundane without you. In actual fact, my life is rather boring without you brother. I've just done two UT and tomorrow is the third one. Please bless me from up there that I will do well alright? Heehee.

Its really different without you here- imagine how much time we used to spent before you pangseh-ed me. We go to school tgt with Sharm and I, while we wait for you at White Sands. We have a light breakfast at W4 before going to class, we'll meet during the first break for a proper meal, traffic light for a smoke, and we'll chill for an hour or so at our 'zai dui'. Then, we'll plan where to go after school or after you've left Sharmaine's house in the night.

Sometimes, you'll just call me randomly after leaving Sharm's house. You would always call and hurry me saying "Quick come down now i reaching alr". And whenever I took my time, you would call for at least 3 times. Then we would have long chats at my void deck till at least 5am. I remember there was once you came up to my house to check something using my laptop, you played the guitar and we were starving then. You even had to cook maggie mee for me because idk how to. Hahaha. I can still remember all that vividly, remembering how you would always tease me but you took care of me at the same time.

I miss you Darren, when my time is up, I hope i will get to see you again because I would wanna kick your ass and slap the back of your neck so badly. You always say i pangseh you because of girls, now you pangseh me so suddenly and never come back already. Why you like that ah?

Just wanna say, I won't forget you brother. Clement, Yw, Rayson, Ji, Jeff, Shannon, Shawn and I won't ever forget you.

See you this coming 30th.
With ♥,
Darryl

Please bless my brother in Your arms.

2010-11-03T23:34:00.003+08:00

Fate really plays with human beings like me, you, everyone else. For example, I met my dear brother, Darren Ng, on the wrong occasion a few years ago. It was also a wrong occasion which made God take him away from us.

I remember very clearly, in 2007, I first met this charming young boy at Loyang Point's Macs. I don't wanna specify how I met him, but I was glad we became friends after. On Christmas day in 2007, one of my close friends had a BBQ at his house, coincidentally I saw Darren there again. Since then, we became good friends from hi-bye friends. But with our busy schedules like the O-levels then, we lost contact.

And then in 2009, I saw this familiar face at RP's orientation. I was ecstatic, was that Darren? To describe Darren in a sentence, it'd be this: He's a very cheerful guy who never fails to stop loving with his heart of gold.

We went to school almost everyday, had lunch, went home together, had fun together at clubs, and merely those lil heart to heart talks at void decks made me feel comfortable. When you first got your license, I remembered, we took 1 hour to reach parkway from woodlands because you had no sense of direction, so did I. You took 2 hours to reach Vivo from pasir ris, it was really hiliarious.

Basically, Darren was the type of good friend everyone would yearn for. He'd never fail to be there for me. I was once outcasted by my own clique, and Darren was the one who spoke up for me. I appreciated it a lot Darren, thank you. There was once, I quarreled with my ex girlfriend and I was extremely upset. The first person who came into my mind was Darren. I called him, and without saying anything, he came and look for me to accompany me. Now, nobody would call me in the mornings, nobody would call me out at unearthly hours.

I don't know why such a tragedy should happen to a nice guy like Darren. Maybe, God did try to help him. He was strong enough to fight till the 3rd time, God thought that He gave Darren enough chances. I admire your strength brother. You have always been so strong. I miss you, I really do. You went away too quickly, the last sentence you said to me was "Call you tomorrow k, sleep early." And you went to your car and drove off. Where did your phone call go to? You promised me we would go overseas together soon, you promised me we would go to JB this saturday. You promised to teach me how to play the guitar, you promised we would get married on the same day and place. Someone told me that, when I got reunited with my friends a few months back, you told her that you were upset because you and me didn't hang out much anymore. I'm really sorry brother, I didn't realise that as I wasn't sensitive enough. Instead, I thought we were becoming closer and closer each day. You would always laugh at my actions, laughing at me for being gay and running like one. You would ask me not to be emo just because I'm quiet. You taught me what to do and what not to do in Life. I remembered all of that.

I remember we went to watch Twilight together, you were so bored you fell asleep and snored. I really enjoyed prawning with you. I thank you for the hospitality you and your family showed me whenever I appear at your house. Those days are now gone, nobody would call me out and have talks again. Those 8 digits with the contact name as Darren won't appear ever again. You were always there to protect me from any kinds of harm. You took care of me like your little brother, I swear I love you. You told me, you wanted to open franchise of coffeeshops. You wanted to form your own band and be the lead guitarist. You told me you wanted to own dogs of your own as pets in future. Where did all of that go? But don't worry brother, I would fulfil your dreams for you.

Looking at you lying motionless, however hard I tried to wake you up, you didn't. It was really heart wrenching to see you that way. But Darren, you looked as good as ever. Yes I'm saying that you're good-looking, heard that? You would always praise yourself that you're handsome last time and I would say you're thick skinned. But I didn't mean that.

Dear Darren, I really miss you, your family too. Justice is gonna be brought to you soon my dearest brother, wait and see. I really thank you for everything that you have done for me, be it the good times or bad times. I'm really sorry that I couldn't be there when you needed my help, I feel so useless..
Anyway Darren, I'll be waiting for you on Saturday night, because it'll be the 7th day you slept.

I miss you brother, I promise I'll visit you every 30th. Promise me you'll come into my dreams alright?

And to everyone:

The truth will be out soon I believe. Don't judge Darren if you don't know him, because he doesn't like it, neither do I, neither do his loved ones, neither do his friends.

God created the best friend for me, and took him away to help stop his pain so that he could be save with You.

10th August 1991 - 30th October 2010,
Sleep well my dearest brother..

Karma

2010-07-13T23:03:00.001+08:00

If you don't want others to do shit to you, don't even do anything nasty towards other people and go around whining that you can't take it when others did something to you.

Eventually, it all comes down to trust

2010-07-13T20:32:00.005+08:00

I've not posted for a long time. And many things have happened since, good or bad, happy or sad. I'm happy, yet upset at the same time how 9months of us has now come to an end.

I'm sorry if I had wasted your time. You could have gone to club more during your holidays and spend time with your friends if you didn't meet me. I felt like I had wasted a lot of your time. You could've been enjoying with your friends now, making money selling tickets. All these while, there were many things I disliked you to do. I sincerely apologise that i stole your lifestyle away from you. Now, you're free again, and I'll be gone. Thanks for all the sweet and happy memories, I really appreciate those times. You made an impact in my life, you taught me many things, we've experienced more than any couple did. But still, it eventually comes down to a 'goodbye' due to certain reasons. You lied to me again and again, after giving you several chances. I knew from the start that it would happen again after the first time it occurred, but I still gave you chances because I love you. Instead, you took it for granted and you weren't even willing to change for me despite those chances I've given you. And the part that hurts most, when I told you that things would be the same because you yourself know that you won't change, you didn't say anything about it. You didn't sound upset, you didn't sound like something just happened.That was hurtful, and disappointing at the same time. If you knew that you wouldn't change, you could have told me earlier.. Still, we've been through many ups and downs, spent almost every moment together.

You can come back anytime you want, don't forget how mom, dad and sis treated you. You're welcome back anytime to see/talk to them if you want.

All I want to say is, if you really love a person, you won't hesitate or think twice to change for your beloved. That is true love. Maybe the thought of breaking up with me has already been on your mind since God knows when. This may be a temporary break for us, but it seems like it'll be permanent. If there's a better guy out there, cherish him. Learn how to treasure and cherish the person you love, don't let him slip away like I did. Whatever it is, thanks for everything..

-Corin Chua Kai Xin

Boring.

2010-06-21T22:26:00.002+08:00

Can someone just tell me why are female creatures always contradicting what they say?

HUGE mouth

2010-05-04T22:12:00.001+08:00

Ya, ya, ya. Woah so daring so smart to post on your blog and whatever shit you're talking in your blog post. Why not just type all the names out? Why not? Isn't it a better idea? You know so much you tell the whole world la, next time just fucking blog it out what you discovered for the day and bitch with people. Isn't that what you love doing? Go ahead la why don't wanna put names? Cos of your fucking big mouth and brainless head, thanks to you.

Fuck off big mouths.
:)

Bloody frustrating

2010-04-22T19:08:00.001+08:00

There are a zillion reasons why I don't like it when you're alone or with your friends.

Nobody could ever understand girls.

2010-04-07T22:15:00.003+08:00

It's gonna be the 6th month soon, and we're still quarreling over some stupid matter which doesn't even concerns the two of us. So..what should i say? You pinpointed that everything was my fault. Yeah, everything was my fault in your eyes. You don't feel it when you talk to me in a manner i believe NOBODY can stand. Nobody. So who else should i blame for all these quarrels? I don't wish to name names out. By now you should know i'm not a oh-so-lovey-dovey boyfriend cos i'm just not used to saying sweet stuffs all the freaking time. Just for you i do it sometimes, and you don't even remember it. You're always so contradicting, saying this and that and the next moment the opposite of things. Who in this whole wide world wouldn't get annoyed? Seriously, i got nothing more to say. You complain stuffs to your friends, i don't. I keep it to my fucking self cos i've got nobody i can share it with. If you don't want me to say hurtful stuffs to you, don't ever, ever talk to me in the manner you don't want me to talk to you with, get this in your head. There are always chances to clear things up, but in fact you just worsen it without you yourself knowing it all the time due to your tone.

You reap what you sow.

Nobody could ever understand girls.

2010-04-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

Pigtures!

2010-02-24T14:21:00.009+08:00

A beautiful lie or an ugly truth? None, a beautiful truth would be better

2010-02-23T03:44:00.003+08:00

Bby is always so contradicting. Idk what to do about her. Someone help me pls!! And she always breaks her promise. Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii poor ball.

Anyway CNY was funnnn and i ate a lotttttt i'm becoming fatboy again HOW. Hahahhahahaha i need a job badly right now cos its the holidays!!!! School starts in April zzz. Arrgh idk what to blog omg.

Prawning with sis and her bf and bby, shisha with sis and bby and many activities we did tgt ah hahahahaha ok idk what to blog already go to www.sugarbabyz.blogspot.com for all the photos including my unglam ones.

Love Chua Kai Xin anyway!!!!!!!

2010-01-25T00:22:00.002+08:00

Hi.

This is Mrs Oh here HEHEHEHE.

If any humans ever come by this blog right, please take note of the About Me section where you can see an absolutely amusing picture of Mr Oh himself HAHAHA.

Ok, so I just edited baby's blog. Wrong move because I lost his tagboard and his music whatever that is called and his links. Thus I tried linking back some. Bah I don't know. Sucha failure in whatever I do. Oh well, gonna help mr darryl oh to post regularly hehehe.

Gonna talk to Michelle and ask her for the tagboard acc and music things.

Michelle knows everything -_- I'm amazed how can she remembers so much stuffs.

Anyway, we went out with Michelle and her bf like on Saturday!

Went to watch Tooth Fairy and that show is amazinggggg.

Fucking hilarious and yeah even though both of us weren't feeling well we still overall enjoyed our day with them!

Okay that's pretty much all. Will blog soon!

Happy Bday BaoBao ^^

2009-12-04T00:03:00.004+08:00

❤

This is the new and one and only Mrs Oh, hehe! I haven't updated for so long I had to find my password for blogger -.-

Oh and its 4th Dec, Happy B'day BAOBAO! 15years old already, be a matured young lady and bring a handsome son in law for me to see okaaay? See you later in the day! :)

Memorable dates; Oct 8.

2009-10-08T19:41:00.002+08:00

TODAY, IS A DAY WHEREBY TWO BROTHERS OF MINE FROM ANOTHER MOTHER GROWS ONE YEAR OLDER, SHANNON AND JENSON.

SHANNON, YOU'VE TURNED 18, PLEASE GROW UP AND THINK BEFORE YOU TALK, I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST AND PLEASE LAST LONG WITH KYLIN. HOPE YOU GET YOUR LICENSE SOON, STUDY HARD AND TAKE CARE OF MAMA WELL. GLAD TO KNOW YOU AND NOT LOST CONTACT AFTER SO LONG! HAPPY 18TH BABE!

JENSON, YOU'RE ALRDY 16, GROWN UP! ANYTHING YOU DO IS NOT REALLY UNDERAGE ANYMORE, SO DON'T ANYHOW AH! TREAT YOUR MAMA BETTER, SHE'S OVERALL STILL YOUR MUM, MUST TING TA DE HUA. ALTHOUGH I ONLY KNOW YOU FOR A FEW MONTHS, BUT WE CLICKED VERY QUICKLY. HAPPY 16TH SEXY, ENJOY!

Every now and then I pretend I'm okay

2009-09-28T01:05:00.004+08:00

My oh-so-adorable/fat/irritating/laulan/AKS Bro.

Introducing, Kelvin Sim Yue Xiang, taking a picture with a model of his size when he was a kid. He's up for grabs ladies. LOL.

Phil's bday, went ECP for dinner and had lotsaaaaa fun.

School's gonna reopen soon, the thought of it irks me, oh man, sigh. There goes my free time, my holidays, my sleeping time TT

You're just like a melody my head
That I can't keep out,
You're just like my iPod stuck on replaaaay.

Reminisced, smiled, as usual :)

I wish the both of you best of luck :)

As long as you don't go against your own true feelings.

2009-09-23T23:10:00.004+08:00

MY THROAT HAS BEEN KILLING ME FOR THE PAST 5 DAYS.

Brotherhood since 2004 ^^

School's starting, damn itttttttt.
I still miss you, I just don't have the courage to ask you for just one last chance.
Get yourself a good guy, one that you really love..
I love you still, J.

When I was with you,
I made every second count,
'Cos I miss you whenever you're not around,
Like how I do right now.
When I kissed you,
I'll still get butterflies years from now.

If I could, I'd rewind this whole thing.

2009-09-17T00:18:00.004+08:00

INTENDED to went job hunting, but I just couldn't wake up before 2pm.
Don't call me when I'm asleep cos i'll never speak more than 3 words. Haha!

Brother from another mother \m/

Say HI to Darrelina, my sister :D

I simply ponder what I've done, which makes me deserve such treatment and results.
Even the closest brothers of mine, I'm starting to doubt my trust towards them.
From those whom I've literary watched them grow up till now, their trust from me has actually decreased.
I just can't believe my ears when I heard the ugly truth, I'm so disappointed in both of you.
There's nothing I can do anymore, take care and treat her well bro.

If I could I'd pull it up and rewind,
To the time before you went away,
Wish I could go back to yesterday,
If I could I'd pull it up and rewind,
To the time when it was just you and me,
Oh, how we were inseparable

Seems like you were just here yesterday.

2009-09-14T08:34:00.003+08:00

I'm up so early, wow. For nothing -.-
Still been slacking around all day for the past weeks, hols don't end so soon please.
I need a job like now!
Call me out if you're free my friends, i've nothing to do at home (:
I'm starting to like this holiday mood!
I need more clothes, but I'm broke most of the times.
Have been quite unlucky recently, don't wish to talk about it -.-

I just wanna live each day as it goes by,
I don't want you to hang around in my mind be it everything I do,
I just hope time can be rewinded, I wanna go back to the past.
But its simply impossible,
'Cos everything's changed,
More and more things I shouldn't know has been revealed to me,
And it causes a tremendous pain in my heart.
Since you've told me that you've stopped loving me,
I've alrdy tried forgetting you,
But it seems impossible too.
I may seem happy and laughing on the outside,
But its all just a facade,
I can't seem to get my mind off the load,
I can't seem to stop thinking of you.
Study hard girl,
You'll soon meet a much better guy than me,
You deserve better.
As a friend, I'll be there for you through it all.
At least you've left vivid memories in my head,
I'll never forget them.

Nicotine low.

Can't sleep through the pain.

2009-09-12T00:38:00.003+08:00

I can't find a jobbbbbbbb.

Days aren't getting better, getting more and more unlucky I should say.
Have been wandering around, thought about a million things in my mind whereever I go.
Holidays don't end so soon please :)

I guess thats my fate, I'm not gonna believe in love anymore.
I guess its gonna take me a very long time to just forget you.
Hope you'll live happily as each day passes, hope you find a better guy soon.
Study hard, don't disappoint mummy and daddy.
I just need time to forget you, nothing else.
Thanks for the wonderful memories kept behind my mind.
The end.

The tears streaming down my face when I lost something, which I can't replace.

2009-09-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

Holidays only mean one thing, making me wake up at 4 or 5pm everyday. Sorry bros, cannot help it. Haha!
No plans for the next few days, well. Maybe we'll be legends? LOL.

Trying to get to sleep. Bye!

My only one.

2009-09-03T01:53:00.000+08:00

"Taking the last ciggarette out of my Marlboro box,
throwing the box out of the window,
lighting the last stick.
Smelling the breath of smoke,
it makes me wonder a lot of things.
Thinking back, rewinding a month or two,
those memories make me smile to myself while tearing.
Nicotine running in my blood,
feeling the kick of the last ciggarette on my lips.
While all these were occurring,
you were all that's on my mind.
Everything that i do,
you're the first thing that comes to mind.
All that i do,
I do it for you.
Looking through my inbox,
I realised, i didn't delete a single message of yours since the first day we texted.
Looking at those msgs, it makes me smile to myself, to my phone once again.
I don't want anything, cos i don't expect anything anymore.
All i want, is you to be happy"

Helpless, when you smile.

2009-09-02T17:25:00.006+08:00

Holidays = Spending money/Not enough sleep period.

Spent my days out with Jenson and co., now Jenson mia.
Thinking of what I should do, haa.
My chance of being a relief teacher is gone -.-

Those thoughts are inevitable, your treatment hasn't got the better of it yet. You can't blame me for thinking like this, think of what you've done in your treatment towards me for the past few weeks. I've got nothing more to say, it's all your say now. I love you J.

I'm glad I met you guys, bros.

2009-08-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

15weeks has passed, there goes W16R. Sorry if I've changed a lot towards the end of the semester, cos things changed a lot for me too. Disputes and internal conflicts, forget them, and remember settle it within ourselves. Its been wonderful knowing you guys, I'll never forget all of you. Have fun, see you guys out there (:

And bros, thanks for always being there. We'll walk through these tgt, through the next few years.

Fighting with Higest Standard, always :)

Birthday !

2009-08-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BRO ROBERT NG YAN XIANG!

I'VE KNOWN YOU SINCE IDK HOW MANY YEARS BACK, YOUR HEAD IS STILL SO BIG, LIPS STILL SO THICK!

18 ALRDY, CAN YOU PLEASE BE MORE MATURED?! STOP GIVING OUT WEIRD SOUNDS ONCE IN A WHILE, IT SCARES THE HELL OUT OF US.

HAHA, TMR OR SATURDAY YOU SURE DIE, I SURE MAKE YOUR HEAD BIGGER.!

21 Piang Piang.

2009-08-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

I'm sick again, fuck it maaaan. Had a fun day today at Emrys', along with Phil and Nick and Emrys' gf. Headed to Amanda's condo to play some kiddy basketball, was kinda fun actually. Exams start tmr, I haven't studied a single shit. Gg.

Meeting bros for breakfast tmr morning, better wake up ah if not I sit alone at Shan Ding like an idiot.

Goodbye, off to rest.

My fate walks on broken glass,
Its hard for the past to come back,
Nothing's ever built to last.
To ask for your hand,
Its like a lion begging for forgiveness from a stone.

Whenever I walk pass places we've been before,
Flashbacks start to occur/.
Whenever I walk pass the flight of stairs at my void deck,
Tears can't seem to stop strimming down my cheeks.
I miss you.

Feeling so helpless.

2009-08-16T00:32:00.005+08:00

Exams are next week, yet i've not read a single thing. Very tired, cannot do anything. Lol.
I need a job, hols are coming soon.

Went swimming the other day at Emrys', though pics were a bit cock.

People around me are all starting to get attached, what about me TT

I'm really disappointed that you're not gonna care anymore..
Even if she's an obstacle between us, i don't think she should be.
But now, things are different, i feel that you aren't caring anymore.
If there's a possiblity of "us", do tell me.
I love you still.
I'm sorry i couldn't be a better guy.

Jeremy and Emrys,
Forever Here Standing.

Moment of truth, is never gonna come.

2009-08-09T00:58:00.004+08:00

Still the same, slacking around these few days. If you're bored come 230 we'll all entertain you. Lol. Woke up at 4 today, went ehub find Jeremy and co. As usual, walked around around around and ended up at 230 again. Tmr, have to wake up early -.-

Happy National Day.

Every now and then, I knew what to say,
But you weren't there to hear it.
Those lines in my head,
Can't be spouted out cos you always don't have the time.
You'll never notice.
To be loved, to be loved
What more could I ask for?

This isn't my heart,
I'm not gonna waste unappreciated efforts

All I can say is, stop lying Darryl.
I detest the way you're treating me now, every single bit of it.
If you wanna end it, please tell me.
"Every girl finds their guy bored after a while, haves some fun, comes back to the guy."
I don't believe in this, i don't.
I can't wait forever.

If you don't love me anymore, please tell me straight, I don't wanna live in self denial.

Feelings of reluctance.

2009-08-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

I remember the first day we talked online,
I remember the first time you said "I love you" to me,
I remember the first time we hugged, I didn't wanna let go,
I remember the first kiss you gave me,
I remember, the first time i said those three words to you and
I remember the first time i knew, i ain't ever getting over you.

You, you got me, thinking I'll be alright.

I'm still waiting for the day you'd come around, though I know there isn't much chance it'll happen.
Nothing else here seems to matter in these ever changing days, but you're still the one who remains in my heart.

When'll we finally intertwine?

2009-08-03T23:38:00.003+08:00

Many unhappy stuff happened recently, shall not say it here. UT3 coming up in less than 3 weeks, should start studying but i'm so shagged.

Bros, though i just got to know you all but i really hope nothing will happen to you all. Shawn, i can see you're a great friend, you really do care for your friends from the bottom of the heart. Although you always call me Rat and i feel like giving you one tight slap, seriously i hope you'll be fine. As for Jenson and the rest, hope you'll all get a lighter sentence. I'll definitely miss all of you if you all are going in, but hopefully God, you all are not.

I've got the "engagement ring", but time isn't on my side, confidence and guts aren't, hopefully you are..

Before the worst comes.

2009-07-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

Enterprise formal day

Formal/Informal/Christmas tree -.-Look at ths size of his blazer.Student or Faci?

Looking forward to hols, though not looking forward to the changing of classes.
Cabot-ed class today, leaving like 5 person in class.
Getting tired of lessons, especially programming.

I'm sorry, if i'm not good enough.
Bro though i just got to know you, its nice talking to you, cos you seem to understand a lot.

And the only chance we have of moving on,
is as slim as a feather.
Started off as ordinary friends, and slowly we enjoyed each other's company.
Text msgs were a whole lot of fun, and i could vividly rmb the first morning call you gave me.
I hope we would never be apart, with your name alrdy tattooed across my heart.
And I noticed the change between us, the change in you.

iamdaaarryl.livejournal.com

Any other way.

2009-07-26T01:19:00.005+08:00

I want holidays now. I hate today, don't ask why.

I give it my all, i don't feel any effort coming from you.
I don't know what to do anymore, i want the old you back.
I'm speechless, i'm helpless.
I try to keep everything inside, but to no avail.
It isn't easy to keep everything inside, trying to wear a mask.
It just comes out like a river, once i let it out.
I'm sorry, i know i'm not good enough for you.
But i'm still waiting, and i hate waiting.
But just for you, i'll still wait because i love you.
I just need more attention from you.
I need a listening ear, now..
I just hope to share your burdens, share your problems.
But i don't know a single thing you're always dwelling about, have you put yourself in my shoes to think how i feel all the time?
All i want to know, is what you're thinking..
I can't change you, i can't control you.
It all depends on you now, because i think its time we should, the day has long came.
I love you.

2009-07-18T12:13:00.002+08:00

School ytd, sleepy like crap. Sort of half aslept through the whole day, aft that went to find Robert at cwp and as usual his phone didn't have any battery left. Bused back to tamp and went 230, then went home to change and went for Muay Thai lesson along with phil and shann. Was much tougher than last week, Alan looked as if he was gonna die anytime with his pale face. Aft that went PRP slack with those guys, then home.

We're not fierce, its just a facade :D

SATHI

Jealousy kills.

2009-07-15T22:37:00.004+08:00

Gave school a miss today, woke up around 3 and met them around 5 i think. Went for dinner and played bball wow. Like after so long i touched a ball. Nothing much, slacked and went home. School and test again tmr, zz. Bye.

I'm keeping it all inside most of the times,
all the while, i just feel like letting it all out,
but i'm not gonna do it.
Its been so long since i last dropped a tear,
i don't want it to happen again.
Looking at you having so much fun,
knowing that you are keeping some things from me,
i just feel so helpless and what more can i do but watch.
Blaaaaah, i doubt the day would ever come..
Jealousy seriously kills, i love you.

Till the day comes.

2009-07-11T16:23:00.004+08:00

Been to school and one week just passed again, two tests are gone case. Nothing much, went for muay thai lesson ytd, was quite fun overall. Kinda look forward to next week's lesson alrdy. No pictures, never take pictures at all. Lol. Lazy to reply tags too.
Till i blog again.

And i feel lucky to have found you,
i appreciate what i have now and i don't ask for more.
But what i just hope for is,
i hope you could do more for the both of us,
i'm not saying you're not but your actions show me that you've changed a lil.
You reply my msgs like after so long,
and i don't know what you're doing outside.
Whenever i see you reply others with long msgs,
somehow somewhy i'd feel jealousy inside of me.
Somehow, i think that you're not caring me as much as you should,
but i couldn't ask for more.
And i'm waiting for the day,
he put you down and she puts me down.
All i need is assurance and more attention from you,
plus more time with you cos i don't think we're spending enough time with each other.
And rmb baby, you're not alone.

You're not alone. There's more to this, i know.
Trust takes a long time to build up.
We can make it out, i'll live to tell.

Pics

2009-07-05T00:52:00.008+08:00

We are normal,

They aren't! !@#$%

Girls, never ever do this.

Mr Ng, DM!

SHORT

SHORTER

EVEN SHORTER. LOL OKAY SORRY.

Two MJ fanatics and a clown in green

THE (ASIAN) BEATLES! WOOOOOOO

Thats all!

Went drinking and lepak with Jesslyn, Phil, Alan. Then nth much, went home after sending her home.

Savouring the moments

2009-07-04T03:57:00.005+08:00

The feeling of stepping in to the place where i met great friends, where i had tons of fun and where i spent my best 5 years of my life; was unexplainable. The feeling of getting to see the people who helped me took a leap in education, the people whom i faced everyday. It was great, maybe more than awesome. The intensity of being back to the place where my brothers and i first met, where we did stupid stuff which i shall not mention(HAHA!). But it was really wonderful to step back to that once-awful place again, PRCS.

PRCS 10th Anni was really fun, getting to meet familiar faces once again, though it makes me feel kinda old now. Hahahah. Lazy to elaborate more, it was just awesomeeeee. Took lotsa photos, but sadly not with my camera cos i don't have one. So peepos who have my photos please send me through msn or tag me on facebook, tyvm!

Went E-hub to catch Ice Age 3, not 3D though, but was still not bad, quite touching ah. You should catch it! Lol. Lazy to type more, off to DotA soon!

My new girlfriend. HAHA joking!

I felt so lucky. LOL

More pictures another time!

I haven't moved from the spot where you left me

2009-06-30T00:17:00.003+08:00

Went out with Phil, Yx, Joyce and co., went to many places. lazy to elaborate.

Woke up today at around 10 for e-learning, it's a bitch. Then around 3 went to meet sec schl clique like after so long we're complete. Paid for 10th anni tix and caught up with some teachers.

Then went to ws, roamed around and saw Jesslyn the dumbasssss. Then walk here walk there. Saw Lydia and Yuexing. Then went ehub accompany them eat, and home. Very bored.

Afeeeeeeeq! At Ikea And FYI that guy in the middle is AH WEI!

Its a fake smile all along this past month, thanks for the memories and rmb, my back isn't turned back on you.

I miss my hair.

Shaking hands and breaking hearts at the same time

2009-06-28T23:17:00.008+08:00

Some pics from Lydia's chalet

SELF ACCLAIMED 'SIBLINGS' HAHAHA

And today i'm gonna write about 小慧,
she is retarded, damn blur, and a PIG.
Sleeps and talks non stop!
(edit)
V adorable, more adorable than me!
HAHAHA, HOT LA HOT LA.

:D

And i'm still trying very hard to get over you.
Today, the arrival to City Hall wasn't that good, flashbacks started when i walked through the mrt barriers, it's alrdy a month, but what more can i say.

MEMORIES.

Trying to smile, like i always did.

2009-06-27T03:19:00.005+08:00

It's gonna be a month soon, how time flies.

&again i dropped tears, because of you.

"The smile's just a facade, but I have to get over it, sooner or later.."
To let you know, i hope we could be close friends once again, and just to let you know, you're never once alone cos you've got me by your side all this while, i'm still always here for you.

And to you brother, let bygones get by as time pass, don't ponder on how much time you've spent, ponder on how much time you've got in life and carry on with a smile on your face everyday because you know you've got people around you who cares. I totally understand how you feel and how your heart aches, cos mine does too. Cheer up Phil, you're all grown up.

Tears

2009-06-25T23:12:00.006+08:00

School's off for a week, but have to wake up everyday at 8.30am to do some stupid elearning stuff which i'm fucking lazy to. Life's been still simple, went to Joyce and friends' chalet ytd, drank again and Joyce sort of went drunk. Stupid asshole. Drink drank and she's drunk. Stayed over and talked cock laughed like crap till around 7, slept for a while, and started receiving messages saying perpare for elearning. Rushed home and on laptop, attended lessons through msn -.- K cut short, damn freaking tired, went over to chalet again around 7+ or 8, couldn't rmb and ate with them.

Not much mood to type bout what happened for the past few days, brothers have been feeling extremely down and i'm upset i can't cheer them up, i myself am down too. And for yx, please for God's sake get a fucking grip and stop talking bout death. It isn't funny and it gets on our nerves and times when you keep on brooding about it.

Phil, i know and understand how you've been feeling for that long period of time but this is life, you've gotta get over it, move on and leave everything behind even if you don't want to. You have to go strong without her, though i know it's not easy to but you still have to try, you can't live the rest of your life in denial. Girls are hard to understand, but we guys are hard to understand too. It takes two hands to clap, and it applies especially to a relationship or between a guy and a girl. Cheer up k, anytime you wnna drink just call us.

And ya, don't think too much about it Shann, just wait for the right time to arrive and everything's gonna go the right way for you i believe. Good luck k, don't ponder too much about it and let your feelings affect you cos that's not a good thing to happen.
It applies to all of you ok.

I've thought it through, seriously thought it through. I know i'm not gonna be the one in your heart, i won't and never will. But that's alright. Don't talk about eternity or being tgt, just think about beautiful memories and the thought of the love we once had. I don't know how much tears i've dropped for you, but i know it was all worth it because in life, everyone's gonna meet somebody who'll change his/her life totally, and for me it was/is you. I realised what is love, i realised the feeling of loving someone with all our heart and not expecting any reciprocation. And during that period of time, though it was shortlived, i can say that it was a lifechanging experience for me and i think i'm not gonna experience the same feeling a second time in my life. I can say i was really happy during that time of my life, for that mere few days. The only thing i regret doing was to decide to go to Aussie, and because of that, i'd lost the girl i loved and am still loving her. Up till this point of time, i'm feeling confused, though the truth alrdy broke my day sometime ago. But all i can say is, love is a wonderful thing only that some obstacles and misunderstandings spoiled its good image. The feeling of being left behind, the feeling of being hung in mid air, the feeling of being doubted. These are feelings which can't be explained with words, and nobody wants to feel that way. If only time could be turned, that'd be awesome. However, like what my friend adviced, if i love her, i should let her go, i could still watch from far her being happy, because if she's happy, i am. If she comes back, she's mine. I poured my heart out a million times, i drowned my sorrows. And i longed for the day you came back, but i know i'm just fantasizing. I didn't regret knowing you in the first place, because if i did, i wouldn't have those beautiful memories and flashbacks stuck in my head right now.
And now, seeing you so happy with your life makes me happy too. Although the only thing i detest about love is, not being able to be with the one you love, but at least we know we're all grown up and have to learn to take it in our stride. And one fine day, if the feelings are back, tell me, who knows i'm still waiting. But as for now, my friend, i'm your good buddy. Today's your birthday, spend it meaningfully with him, spend sufficient time with him and don't let your feelings control you. Anytime, give me a call or a text i'll be there. And thanks for the wonderful memories, they'll always be at the back of my mind. And, as i was typing this post tears of sadness and gladness just ran down my face. :)

/Huimin- yah i'm ok. ^^
/JKSH-you idiot, paranoid face. hahahaha smile la ok.
/christine- ya, its kinda pervertic. lol. the song's damn nice.
/Joey Elisa Chew&Joyce Ah Chan- walao wey you two damn horrible leh.
/Michelle- tmd chou nu ren!
/JESS!E- ya, i'm trying to. haha.
/Gx- ya la trying laaa. lol. muacks.
/YX!- you talk about death again i'm seriously sending you to hell
/Afeeeeeq- yeh i will, thanks ah brother.
/Guest- hey, thanks for the encouraging words. :)
/Shannon- lol, you ask her loh. hahaha
/Nanthini- i'm alright laaa, thanks anyway :)
/hanis!- hey, how're you?
/Queen- go dieeee.

And brothers, just remember,

不要说天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有

To, you.

2009-06-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

I'm still waiting, always waiting. I'm sure one day, i'll fill up the missing parts.

Confusion

2009-06-23T09:28:00.001+08:00

I just wnna have a good talk with you, even if you spare me just 5 minutes. I'm always waiting for you to talk to me, because i'm afraid you won't wnna talk to me, i'm afraid you're avoiding me, i'm afraid you're mad at me.

I just want to have a talk with you.

How this world turns cold, and breaks through my soul

2009-06-22T21:00:00.011+08:00

Up till this point, you still can't forget her right, Darryl. But i just can't stop thinking bout stuffs, nvm. And ok ppl, stop lecturing me bout it.. I know, nobody cares if i'm weeping my ass off, but i just can't get my mind off it. But if you do, just tell me you do.

Try to get your emotions right and get back on track. Waiting for her, loving her doesn't mean you have to be sad and angry at every single thing she does. Loving her means respecting her, if you love her, when she;s happy you will also be happy right? I know it's no use asking you to get over, i know its not easy. But loving her doesn't mean you need to have her by your side, loving her means that as long as you're able to see her happy and well, you'll be happy too. As long as she needs help, you'll be there to help her. Its like being her guardian angel.

Ah chan said that to me, but i don't think i can do it. And yeah, see the last two words. So yah, stay happy k, i've told you for don't know how many times, you know who you are, if you're reading this. Though i doubt you will be. Nvm, nobody will understand. Anyway, i find it too much a coincidence, someone saying these two words to me, which meant a lot to us. Meant. And now, my laptop's mic is spoiled. I just find it too coincidental, just that Fate thinks its April's Fool everyday for me.

Anyway, had a good chat with Wan abang and talked bout several stuff. Wan, though i knew you for like only a few weeks, you really treat me like your brother sia. I hope you take good care of yourself, work hard and thanks for all the advice. I really value what you said to me, hope to see you soon. Take care bro.

hello says:
*must be strong
*no use we cry for girl
*must be a bit harsh to them
*hehe

hello says:
*haha
*u cannot love the girl 100%
*must be 50% only

Though what abang said was quite true and realistic, but still, i love this lady 101%, i've never felt this way before.. Towards you, i did stuff i didn't do. Towards you, i was willing to sacrifice.

Whenever i think of all the lil memories you left with me, i'll just start dropping tears....
And yeah, i can do it. I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.

I think.

I'm still here waiting for you, please do know.
Just know i'm here, whenever you need me i'll be waiting for you.

I was just play a game i was losing all along

2009-06-21T20:04:00.006+08:00

Happy Father's day daddy, love you dad.
Thanks for sharing the happiness with me all these years, thanks for bringing me joy all my life. I love you more than any other sons who love their dads in the world.

From, your beloved son.

A friend of mine said these to me:

oh. k. my point is that, its a game. she's just another girl la. She know how to play the game, thats why you end up getting hurt cause you developed feelings for her. and you might say she got feelings for you too, but what do you really know? You are not her what. She can send you sweet messages, what makes you think she can't send it to other guys?

Sometimes, when a girl and guy comes together, they flirt, they kissed and stuffs. Its a casual r/s. A lot of ppl are like this nowadays. But then when one of the party put in feelings, thats when you end up getting hurt.

So you want play, gotta tell yourself its a game, no feelings involved.

Sound very cheap and slutty, but thats how it works.

Sounds like a disgrace to the human kind, but yeh why does it have to be true.
Thanks Joyce, thanks Joey. You cheer up too Denise, you forget, i also forget, forget tgt. People are heartless, we have to be too, take it as a valuable lesson learnt. :)

2009-06-21T16:48:00.002+08:00

Don’t stop just because your heart is broken.

Don’t wait for things that will never be spoken.
Keep up w life, And try to move on. Stand up, its not the end yet.

You dont have to forget about the memories, you dont have to forget about anything.
Those that can never be replaced inside your heart, Just leave it there, Dont bother about it.
Just because it did not work out between you two, Doesn’t mean it will never work out for you.
Everything happens for a reason.
You’ll realise you had to loose what you had before to find what you had really been searching for.
You’ll be so much happier then you ever were back then and you wont remember the pain anymore.

Get a grip of yourself, You've got to stay strong.
There're always many obstacles in life, And those will make you grow stronger.
Look ahead, And dont look back.
You can miss her, You can think of her.
But tell yourself, There's always a limit.
You can love her, You can wait for her.
But tell yourself, Dont let anything affect you.
Dont let your emotions get the better of you.
If you love her, Let her go, If she comes back, She's yours.

I know its no use asking you to cheer up, We wont understand your pain.
But friends are there to help one another, Thats why we're here.
Dont keep things to yourself, Share it w your close ones.
Dont think of the negative side, Cause you'll fall into it deeper.
Anytime you need someone to be w you, Yknow we're all here :)

From: Big head Robert's sissy :)

Romances don't rewind

2009-06-21T05:09:00.004+08:00

School, school, school. As usual school, and my putting in of effort at laughing.
Nothing much, went for a haircut, a real haircut. No more sloppy Darryl. just reached home and here i am, can't get to sleep. Just came home from drinking, once again, with the usual peeps.
Met Melrize and friends to drink too, after which sent the girls home, and ate dinner/supper/breakfast and went our separate ways. Reached home around 5, nua a while then on lappy.

Guess it takes time.
And thanks to everybody who've been giving me advice, who've been saying i'm an ass. Lol.
All i have to say is, yeah i think i'm an ass, i'm too naive.
It's not as if if i'm sad, i'm worrying, my hearts aching, she'll care.
Yeah, i pinned my hopes too high.
Joey: You care less, you win the game.
I guess it's how things work.

You left, without saying goodbye.

Confess all the faith that I once had in you

2009-06-20T00:33:00.006+08:00

It's just like you're alrdy a part of my life, i can't stop thinking about stuff which links to you. I can't stop worrying for you, and i don't wna contact you.. Someone please help me take my mind off all these stuff.
Inside, i hope you know i'm dying.

And if i'd die right now, i'll still not get the old you back.
I can't stop worrying for you, even though i'm a nobody to you now.
Yeah, i have to accept the fact that you left without me, but i just can't.
I have to accept the fact that the other guy now is way better than me, he can make you happy.

And again, flashback starts when you sent me sweet messages and asked if i was falling for you, and it mattered to you. Now, it's a completely different case, i'm like a total stranger to you now.
Whenever Your Guardian Angel is played, emotions just starts taking over..

Please just take care of yourself, please be happy.
Nobody will like being kept in the dark, yet i am, nobody loves the agony of being left all alone in just a short period of time, yet i am.

And yet, i'm still loving this lady while she did all these.
It's hard for me to accept when such stuff happens, and i'll soon be numb to the surroundings when i reach a point where i think i can't control anymore.
But it's alright, i'll still be here waiting for you to come back, if you will..

and to you, guy. you'd better treat her as all your life, if not i won't care how ppl see me as and not just sit there watch you make her unhappy. you'd better love her with all your heart, if not i'm not letting you off either.

Darryl needs a break.

helpless when she smiles

2009-06-18T22:11:00.005+08:00

Couldn't get to sleep last night. I'm happy when i can help my friends, especially in relationship problems. But then. nvm. school, forced myself to laugh today, laugh at the tiniest thing even.
school ended, went back to pasir ris meet Chian and friends at ehub. then went to find Jesslyn the dumbo for while. then went central find them. then drink again. drink drink drink.

and again, i wondered to myself millions of stuff in my mind.
was i that easy to forget.
the night before i went off, we went to Fort Canning, we walked and looked at people, the lil jokes we shared and you being scared.
my heart was at my throat when you held my hand, i didn't know how to react.
June 3rd, it all began with all the confessions and i was so darn happy.
just after 2 or 3 days, you gave up on me. totally.
nobody understands how i feel.
it's the worse feeling in the world, thought that we would be happy tgt just like a mere 2 weeks ago.
the feeling of jealousy, the feeling of being doubted, the feeling of being given up on without a damn reason. fuck you Darryl.
i bet you won't even be looking at this, even if you do you won't feel anything anymore.
yeh, i'm someone who won't ever be in your heart. but remember, i said i'll be happy if you do, just know, i'll be right here whenever you need me.

Melrize,: Hi sumei! trying to cheer up..
Afeeeeeeeeq: lol, zamzam another day soon man. call la call la catch me catch me.
(Denise): lol you are so retarded! hahaha
fee horr: asshole.. talk to me soon.
Joyce Joysie: i got no boobs to expose la idiot. smile more. yes you weirdo!
Shannon: wtf alan like me i also dowan..
Xela: LOL!!
Chian: don't lecture me.. idiot dumbasss.
Felicia =): thks for the encouragement. lol.
nadia: lol, hair irritating leh... LIAN.
Christian: haha, alright brother.
JESS!E: huh..
JKSH: aiya.. lol.
YX!: you also la. cb. lol

I guess, it's goodbye..

2009-06-17T20:24:00.005+08:00

School's started, everything's back on track. Went IKEA ytd with Ah Joyce, Ah Feeq, Ah Wei, and Ah Wei's gf Ah Pei. Hahaha. Had lots of laughters especially, then around 8+ Ah Wei and Feeq went home, leaving and and the weirdo. Ask her want go where dunno dunno in the end also go home. Become your maid liddat. Asshole. Lol.

I've been pondering a lot since like, a week ago.

I wondered what i did, to make you give up on me so easily, in such a short period of time, a few days.
I wondered what i did, to let you walk right in and out of my life, that easily.
I wondered, what am i to you now.
I wondered, am i even a friend to you now.
I can vividly remember, the first day i saw you through the webcam, you really caught my eye.
I remember, you said i was persistent in knowing you.
I didn't care about what i was doing which i usually didn't.
After that, you caught my heart, in which you were kept in the dark.
I can remember the night before i went off, i looked into your beautiful eyes, trying to tell you, I love you.
My entire life, i'd never care to look at a girl the way i looked at you that night, but on that very night, i did.
Up till this point, i still don't know what i did to make you give up on me, but yeh, there's only one thing i regret. I wished i didn't go to Aussie. What an ass, Darryl.
It's kind of obvious you've changed, towards me.
But nevertheless, i'm tired of worrying, tired of gripping on false hopes, tired of waiting cos i don't wna be the one who always takes the first step.
And now i realise, i'm never gonna be the one in your heart..

Seriously, no words could describe how i feel, maybe, only songs could?
Whatever it is, stay happy, with him i guess....
If one day, the feelings could be retrieved, or you'd change your mind, i'll still be here, though i doubt the day would ever come.

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and I'll let you go, I'll set your free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

You find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me

Come back to me-David Cook

what if

2009-06-14T01:18:00.005+08:00

slept at around 7.30am, woken up at i think 3, due to vik's call. nua around, used comp and blahblah.

waited till 5+, 6. met phil at ws then went off to meet Afif at tamp, then headed down to bugis to meet Vik Feeq and ah Wei. walked over to Zam Zam, the food, wah beef murtabak. Feeq lets go there another day. Cfm must. hahhaha. Fairoza came, Mahdi came, Ted and Bev came.

Ate, talked cock, then went over to shisha. Met Joyce and her friend Elaine. long story cut short. HAHA.
lepak talk cock blablabla time passed so fast. one by one went home. then went home.

oh and we saw Mr Razak! great to see him after such a long time, he still looks the same. take great care!

gooooood sister, niceee brother. hahahaha

look at his damn height

all i could only wish for now is, if only.

fuck the shit

2009-06-13T14:42:00.003+08:00

met up with alan shann phil at san ding, along with Chian and her friend for dinner.
talked crap then went off, shann went home to change his tee cos he was wearing the same as me -.-
then Chian and friend went off, we headed to ehub to meet alex. nua for 2hours plus, then caught a movie, Land of the lost. not bad ah. then went to ws, find shann's friend, phil went home while we went for supper, broke. borrowed money from alan and then drink drank dunk once again. emo people lol. slacked around, time passed so fast, ate breakfast, went home at 7+.

ok, promised myself to laugh more.

define fairness

2009-06-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

nothing much, couldn't get to sleep, partly cos of fucking sunburns. woke up around 3.
Bugis MRT, 6pm, tmr. classmates, please turn up.

here i am, still holding on

2009-06-11T10:00:00.004+08:00

yeeehhhaaaaa. met up with those jokers, including TGX, man. without yx though. passed them their stuff i bought from Aussie, hoped you guys like it, esp Alan and Alex, suits you guys a lot right. hahahahaha. then, drink drank almost drunk. did crazy stuff and then settled down after quite sometime. and then, here i am, here we are waiting for yap wei teck to wake up -.-

he is totally like the thing he chops man. LOL. update more ltr in the night.

i wna know why, but i don't wna know in the same time, due to being afraid of the truth.

12.30am

pics from the previous night

he was 3/4 drunk, i swear.

cramped!

nabei nearly make me fall.

dead and gone. hair is getting in the way

a lil too high i guess.

just now's photo. it's been 12 long years dude, don't ever forget me you bitch. i'll be your best man at your wedding with _ _ _ _ _. LOL

(:

all that's left

2009-06-10T17:26:00.007+08:00

these two weeks, though it's been really memorable for me, they're just memories by now.
a mere 7 days could bring such a drastic change and twist of events.
but it's okay, i have to accept it and live on with these beautiful memories.
i'll never forget them, and all i could imagine is see where we could be, if we pressed fast forward.
i love you still, buddy.

please take care of yourself at work, don't overwork and get more rest.

only for close friends who've been through thick and thin with me, iamdaaarryl.livejournal.com

sing me lullabies

2009-06-09T23:27:00.005+08:00

100th post.

yeh, i'm back and i'm sweating. start mia-ing, maybe?
guess it's all over, before it even barely started..
it's okay, at least it's better than being hung in mid air.
nevertheless, i'll still try, if i have a chance to..

goodbye.

I rest my head from running circles around my mind
On why you let go
No answers to be found, romances don't rewind
I guess I'll never know
Why your absence is devastating

break even

2009-06-08T17:35:00.006+08:00

i don't know what to do. i want to go home. i wna sleep and don't wake up.

you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
you took your suitcase and i took the blame,
trying to make sense of what little remains,
cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

still, always here.

could only watch from far

2009-06-07T18:00:00.008+08:00

Hope your problems get solved soon. Go back to him if you think you should, i'll do fine i guess. Don't let anything stop you from doing things you wna do. Rmb i said, i'll be happy if you are, it still works the same way even if i'm watching from afar.

Stay happy k, i'm always gonna be here however your decision might be. (:

I love you, still.

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

no surprise

2009-06-06T18:12:00.005+08:00

firstly, i miss you, real bad..

secondly, shannon please read my essay i left for you in msn. lol. esssaaaaay hor.

thirdly, i wna go home.

fourthly, thks Felicia for the motivation. greatly appreciated. haha.

fifthly, yx pls cheer up so you can make me laugh. LOL. cheer up la ok.

sixth, alex peh i heard smth bout you, can faster share with me? hahahahahaha

you fucking irk me, your bloody actions and whatsoever. please, don't be everybody's bootlicker when you were a hypocrite.

Baby, where are you? you know you've got me really worried, i feel so helpless over here while you don't even give me a reply or whatsoever. i've been waiting for you on msn since 5, yet to no avail. everytime i see an msn pop up, it gives me a false hope. baby, it really worries me a lot. seriously, if that guy's harrassing you again, i don't know what i'll do next. baby, please, give me a reply will you?

:D

2009-06-05T21:50:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELRIZE NG SU MEI HAHAHA.

YOU'RE 15! SEE, I DIDN'T FORGET OK, AFTER 7 LONG MONTHS OF NOT TALKING TO YOU. HAHAHA.

HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT DAY!

ps, jealousy is the worst feeling in the world.

miss you baby.. <3

bby, i don't care what fuck he wants from you, if he wants anything, ask him to want it from me straight. baby, i know you're not in a situation you wna be in, but just to let you know, it aches for me to see you in this condition, i'll be here for you no matter what comes in future. he wants to call and scold you, tell me i pick up. he want find trouble, i don't care. baby, i love you i don't wna lose you.

baby i need you

2009-06-04T23:27:00.006+08:00

firstly, i am dying of boredom. secondly, before the day ends,

Happy Birthday Afif, aka Mr A! You're 18 now, you can do whatever fuck you want now, becareful ok! Don't come to class and tell us you're gonna be a dad in 9months time! Hahaha. Happy birthday!

Okay webcamming with Feeq and Joyce really cheers me up. laughters are goood!

Hey baby, i really miss you. Whatever i did today you just came into my mind. I don't wna lose you, i miss you, please take care of yourself, don't make me worry. When i saw your email, my heart really raced. I need you, faster get home baby.

presence makes the heart beats faster (:

2009-06-03T22:08:00.008+08:00

Alright, webcammed with her till around, 4am? couldn't bear to put down vid call. haha. baby's got chalet today and tmr. wokeup around 9 today, took a quick cold bath and left for Perth again. Stopped by some place for fast food then reached Perth, back here again. Finally tmr can go out and walk and shop. like finally. nua nua and nua again, dota-ed with peh for a while and due to sucky connection i dc-ed. then had a convo with W16R peeps, having an outing next saturday, meet at bugis at 6pm. GO OK.

I think i look so innocent and i really am

Meowmeow so cuuuute!

Hey baby, i'm missing you <3
Thanks for telling me whatever you told me ytd night, i really appreciate it.
Hope to see you soon, i miss you, my Amanda Chen Wei Fang.

Revealed

2009-06-03T02:40:00.001+08:00

Dancing is my life, music is my bestfriend, laughter is a necessity, being loud and crazy is my middle name. Nice meeting you. I'm Amanda. Law of science made me the way as I have nothing swinging inbetween my legs. Thank god for this.

For the dick is the root to all evils. (X

Hello all, I'm Amanda and I'm helping love to blog. Actually don't really know what to blog. But what I wanted to say is that I Love You. You knew that within it's just words of the unspoken. (:

My conscience is biting me deep from within but I can't seem to stop this feeling from overflowing. You know you got me crazy, got me all over the place.

hey, i miss you

2009-06-02T21:59:00.010+08:00

today was literally wasted away, cos this town is so damn small, smaller than Pasir Ris even. Woke up at around 11, bathed, headed out to town which took 30mins, had breakfast with mum and dad, saw some Singaporeans in the cafe and talked to them for a short while. then, went to their supermarket to buy some stuff. went back to dad's friend house to nua, while dad cooked up some dishes for dinner. and for me, used the laptop, surprised to see you online baby, glad we cleared things up k. webcammed with her for like 3 hours, then she went off due to her own activities. then, visitors came to the house and blabla, so boring. Thursday thursday faster come.

OH AND I DROVE A CAR FOR THE FIRST TIME HAHAHA SO FUN. 3000CC HONDA ACCORD ON ROCKY ROADS. LOL. DAMN FUN LAAAA.

ok the uploading of pics is really pissing me off with the turtle speed internet.

selling of avocados in the middle of a forest.

my car for the day! joking.

cute lil Midgey.

huhu got smoke~~

Feeq, hungry?!

Hahah and to some joker(s) out there, stop going around and ff-ing everybody.

acwf, faster come home! <3

every single second

2009-06-01T21:02:00.003+08:00

ok shit it i woke up at 8am today. bloody hell wake up so early. ok nvm i can tahan. hahaha. 8more days and im back! Went to another of dad's friend's house in another area called Pemberton. Damn cold, colder than where i was ytd at Perth. Shit it now only like 14degrees. Anyway slept for a while during the 3 hour drive. 3hours drive and slept wake up slept wake up.
Okay thursday faster come so i can go shopping.

Don't know what plant is this. but looks nice

So cuteeeeeee and dogggy didn't wna cooperate taking a pic with handsome guy. LOL its a female btw.

Finally and look at her -.-

I don't really care bout the outcome between us, cos i just want you to be happy..
I miss you. I could even dream of you in my 15mins sleep.

so near yet so far

2009-05-31T21:11:00.003+08:00

Okay Aussie is definitely not so warm like Singapore and it's so cooling here in the afternoon. AND I'M FREEZING MY DAMN BALLS OFF IN THE NIGHT WTF. But i enjoy it. LOL. Anyway only took two pathetic pictures. The bloody sky got dark at like 5.30pm and i thought it was like 8 alrdy.

Typical street side fast food, a rare sight though.

Don't think it seems small, it's like two McSpicy! Powerrr!

You're missed! You know who you are. :)

one look and you got me weak

2009-05-28T21:17:00.003+08:00

Maths UT is a goner for sure. Today's programming is another goner too. Tmr's Science, i'm not quite sure but the outcome's gonna be the same i guess. I'm gonna study! Yes study. And feeq is coming back tmr! Okay i don't know what else to blog anymore. Sorry Amanda for upsetting you today. Smile ok, (:

Woooooo! Three cheers for Hiro Nakamura!

Exhausted

2009-05-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

I............. don't know what to blog. Lol. Afeeq is well now! Good. Take care of your health dude. Ok schl is per normal laughing like shit everyday. Nothing much to blog bout. Flying on Sunday ^^
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

UTs

2009-05-22T22:16:00.003+08:00

Yet another hectic but fun week passed, welcoming the 6th week on monday. Time seriously passed, leaving us with only 11 weeks left with each other. Really look forward to the upcoming outings and the chalet on the 16th week. Well, school's been rather fun but sort of boring without Feeq around. Get well soon man. Nothing much to say, good luck for UT all.

Not the Darryl you all used to know.

Trust takes a long time to build up, yet only takes a night to crush it.

Tests tests tests

2009-05-19T21:17:00.006+08:00

Tmr's the first UT i'm gonna have, and i've not much confidence for it. Hahah. Anyway, whole class shared to buy Nanthini a cake, surprised/touched isn't it? We walked in the rain, over the bridge, miles away from RP just to get it during break okay. Thought it's just like a few blocks away but i just love to exaggerate.

hahha off to study for UT though nth much to study i think. Just read up everything i learnt, kiasu a bit.

QUEEEEEEEEEEN IS :
preeeeeetaye.
slim!
sweeeeeeeeeeet till kana diabetes.
haaaappy!

Por also only. LOLLLLLLL hahahaha.

Ohoh and cameroid.com is sooo fun hahahahhaa. Birdshots shall not be uploaded!

Sleepy eyes..

It hurts

2009-05-16T23:53:00.004+08:00

Been a bad and good day for me, more to the bad side though, ppl whom i ranted to will know why. Anyway, Alan went for his tattoo session again, don't know how to describe.

No words, no words can describe you.

Pain for the moment, takes years to heal.

Played around with cameroid.com at school in class, look at the length of my hair. Any suggestions whether I should cut it, to what style. Gets on my nerves at times.

Anyway, Happy birthday Nanthini. Enjoy your day :)

W16R!

2009-05-15T23:45:00.003+08:00

4weeks have passed in school, time has seriously passed very quickly. At the start of school, W16R was so quiet we could hear the air con blowing and I seriously hated Ted. Joking dude. Haha.
At the start, nobody spoke, nobody wanted to interact, nobody wanted to make the first move cept' that Ted's intro on the first day was hilarious and I believe vivid in everybody's mind.

But now, it's a totally different case. Up to this date, W16R is only explainable in one word, Unseparable; though we have to leave each other on the 16th week, meaning we only have 12more weeks left together. I believe, all of us thinks that we should have started this unity much more earlier, so we wouldn't feel so depressed that it's alrdy the 4th week in the blink of Liwei's eyes.

Now, the class is so rowdy we can't even hear if it's raining or not. Okay, a bit exaggerating though. Hmm, I guess, we should cherish the remaining time we have and make good use of it, do whatever stupid stuff we can, prank call as much as we can.

I think, though we came from different schools and areas, our bond is, superb. Alright, enough of all these emo shit. Hope we get more class outings as possible, spend more time with each other before we separate. Let's take a class photo soon! Tag me if you see this guys!

<3

No words can describe.

2009-05-13T22:22:00.003+08:00

What is Life. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha

A joke.

Am alrdy feeling fucked up over stuff that happened today, now another total fucking stranger comes and add fuel to the oil. So great!

Anyway,

Tsk.

No more quarrels pleaseeee.

2009-05-12T23:07:00.004+08:00

Bee& I had a quarrel (again) just now.
Sucks, sucks big time.

I seriously hate quarrels to the core.. Please let all of it stop at this very moment. *Begs*

Bee's off to bed at about 9+, because I told him so and also because we quarreled.
I don't know if anyone had cheered him up or whether he's feeling better now because we didn't contact each other..

Nothing much to say actually because I start to learn things another way (I guess)..

Netherless,
Darryl Oh,
I love you..

TO THE MAX :)

Sleep well, I'm off to get frustrated with my homework..
(I guess I'm just too stupid and make things worsen, bloody shit (me). )

P.S. I just added some heartshapes beside my nameeee :) Because this blur sotong of mine don't know how to do it. :)

♥ It's always a smiley me, to see your smiles.
♥ It's always a retarded me, to go all out just to make you laugh.
♥ It's always a contented me, to hear you saying "I love you" & other sweet simple sentences to me.
♥ It's always a silly me to smile at you being blur. ( ♥Big sotong)
♥ It's always a relieved me, to hear that you're safe and sound.

But,
It's always a heartbroken me, to see us quarreling.

May all quarrels lessen& more lovely sweet moments happening. God bless us.

With love, Shortie ♥.

Mummy!

2009-05-10T19:24:00.002+08:00

Happy mother's day mummy! I love you!

:D

Though you always bully me, you're still my sister.

2009-05-07T08:49:00.001+08:00

No time to blog. But here to say, when you're in BKK, please take care of yourself sister.

Schoooooooooool.

2009-04-30T23:19:00.003+08:00

Alright, finally it's the weekends again! Wooooooohooooooooo. A hectic week for me, or us I should say, definitely. School has been better for me, made more friends in class and became more lively.
As usual, presentations every single day, oh man. This could kill. Lol.
Met up with Bee and the rest of them on certain days, forgot which days it were.

Anyway, something really funny happened today in class, during presentation, which was my team presenting. Today's lesson was to do research on whether microwaved food or homecooked food is better. Then after we do our research, we have to do powerpoint slides for it, and then at the last few slides we have to put the URLs of those websites we took the info from. Then there's this guy named Lincoln, he's my teammate, and I actually got to know him through Bernard as well. He's so damn funny la, he kan chiong till he say wrong. What he actually had to say was, "This are the websites we took from the Internet(points to powerpoint slides).".
BUT! What he actually said when he was kanchiong was, "This are the websites we took from the microwave."

LIKE WTH LA NOBODY ACTUALLY REALISED WHAT HE SAID UNTIL TEACHER SAID, "HUH? TAKE URL FROM MICROWAVE?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY.

Labelled : Mine/Shortie's.

2009-04-25T18:08:00.005+08:00

I'm hereeeee! This is a surprise post by me! :)

Bee doesn't know that I'm in there blogging because he's using ebuddy to online& of course, because I didn't told him :D Muahahahs.

We almost quarreled again just now, we're fine now :)

Bee's going out with me to get my stuff! \m/ Aww, bee, you rockkkk! :D

Oh ya, 3rd month :) We had a simple day out yesterday& I really enjoyed it because I have your company :) And the best part is, of course, our video call on MSN which the both of us laughed like mad.

I hope we have..
May 24 June 24 July 24 Aug 24
& so on..

I got a strong feeling that we're gonna quarrel, again..

I love you.

2009-04-21T20:44:00.004+08:00

School's started, and I was almost late for both days if i didn't cabbed down with Mich and Kimsiew -.- Morning buses always so many people, tmd.. Sian man, nobody i know in class. And, we can't be late for class, have to reach there earlier than 8.30, 8.31 means late -.- If late then daily grade minus 0.5, wtf. Plus, EVERYDAY timetable is the same, 8.30am - 3.30pm. ZZZ.

Okay enough of the stupid rules, I hate Mondays. Mondays is Science lesson, and i hate my Science class team. Hypocrites.

Anyway, today was kinda fun with another team, they're sociable and funny. And surprisingly, it was Maths and i kinda enjoyed it. Not sure if I should join a CCA.

Goodluck to me, 3years more to go.

Invadeeee!

2009-04-19T02:21:00.003+08:00

Muahahahhas!

I managed to hack in here! :D
\m/
I got the password correct!!

: If the both of us thinks it is, then it confirm is! :D
24th is comingggg! It's on friday! \m/

Must be free for me kkkkkkk!

I'm here to blog for my lazybummmm!

:

He's sick, and I believe he's freaking irritated by the running nose& sore throat along with his bad cough. His medicines ain't helping& stubborn him doesn't wanna see a doctor.

Everyone! Help me persuade him pleaseeeee! TYVM! :D

Last but not least,

I love you I love you I love you I love you!!

Best of the best.

Boredom.

2009-04-18T00:37:00.000+08:00

Shit school, shit Life.

Never gonna turn back

2009-04-13T00:17:00.002+08:00

Life is back to square one,

School's starting, with camp first this week. Nothing much to say, Bye.

2009-04-10T03:40:00.005+08:00

9April, Sheeeeesha! For the very first time. Lol!
Shan't elaborate more, kinda lazy to type. Let some of the pictures do the talking, far too many pictures to be uploaded and as i said, was lazy. ~.~ Hahaha. Here goes;

LOL!

Ready, puffpuffpuff

Goooo. And look at the amount of smoke that comes out from him!

OH.MY.GOD JUST.LOOK.AT.HIS.FACE!
(Click to enlarge, scare yourselves!)

(:

Lazy to blog more, post another day. Byeeee~

Fuck this feeling.

2009-04-02T00:52:00.006+08:00

5/2 '08 Bbq was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeee. At least, it's something better than our Sentosa outing the other time. Lol.
Went to school at around, 12+ going 1 in the afternoon. Met up with Alex, Shann, Yx and Christian to head over to school to collect our certificates and testimonials. Collected, then went to CoffeeExpress for lunch. Gx came to meet us at his void deck, then went to have lunch. Then, Bernard came soon after. Finished lunch, we headed home and met up again at Gx's void deck at around.... 5+?

Walked over to E-hub to meet the rest, namely Jaena, Joyna, Nikki, Alex Ang. Helped to carry the stuff over to Pasir Ris Park bbq pit 16. Took out the stuff, started the fire. Soon, the rest of those who were supposed to turn up came, and everybody had fun. As usual, Michael was teasing the class clown, Yx, all the time. Lol. Played and eat till damn full. Took lotsa photos, will upload them another time cos i don't have them right now. Then, went separately and home.

I just wnna say, good luck to all of you my friends. Good luck to you in your new life, be it Poly, private schools, ITE or retaking O's. All of you made my secondary school life very and extremely fun, I spent 5days a week with all of you for 1-2 years. It's natural I can't bear for us to spearate, but it's life. Life goes on, but! We'll still meet up every now and then right?
Good luck, loves to all of you! <3

Lazy to type more, nobody will know how i feel, how much stress I'm under. Bye.

Time, hope I could turn it.

2009-03-21T17:13:00.006+08:00

I forgot, on which day, I think most probably it was Tuesday, after so long and finally, every single one of us(including Mr. TGX) appeared and the whole clique went for a movie :)
But damn, Shannon suggested to watch "Coming Soon", which is very, very scary?! Okay la, to me it's scary. Haha! But some parts are quite funny. No wait, actually the funny part was after the movie, where we have to walk out of the theatre, we were approaching the exit door, then it was quite dark, so Alex wanted to prank on someone; wanted to prank Alan, but he was in front, Philbert too, so the last resort, Mr NYX! Alex simply bua Yx's neck and hid behind the curtain, and guess what, he chua sai-ed and gave out a weird expression: "Rweeeeeeee~" in an increasing tone. LOL! The people behind us who were waiting to walk out of the theatre were also laughing at his expression. Hahaha!

Wednesday, didn't really go anywhere, had dinner at home, then gym with Shannon at CC. After gym was around 10pm, so decided to wait for Alan to come back to Pasir Ris after his tuition. Then, slacked at SanDing for around an hour or so, joked and laughed with western stall uncle, quite a humorous guy. Then, Shannon suggested we tonned at his house as his brother was at HK for holiday, and the room&computer was all his. I went home, bathed, nua a while then brought my laptop over, cos lappy configuration at RP was on the next day. Don't know why, when I was leaving, was a lil reluctant to leave, maybe cos I know I wasn't spending enough time with my family :(. Arrived there, Bee came over too. Then Alan was last, as usual. Played around, joked and laughed. Wanted to use his house's internet but damn, that asshole didn't have the password to his wireless connection. Lol. Around 2am, went to Coffee Express to have supper. Then, went back to his house slack, time really flew. Soon it was around 5am alrdy, sent Bee home first. Then around 7am Alan went home to bathe. Then Shannon and I slept for around 3hours, till 10.15am like that. I set the alarm, and I let it snooze 3times ~.~ Haha! At least I was better than Shannon, I heard the alarm ring, he DIDN'T. I woke up, tried calling him up, shaked him, smack him, poked him, he woke up, rubbed his eyes and went back to sleep. Second him, raised my voice a lil, shook him again, and guess what, he said "NI HEN FAN LEH!" Tmd. Ungrateful idiot!

Went to wash up and bathed, then met around 11.30am at Coffee Express. Alan was the first to arrive, omfg. Ahahah! Then Bee arrived shortly. Had breakfast, and I forgot to bring something out for configuration. Dad took the thing out and passed it to me at central. Thanks dad :):)
After that, headed to bus stop and took 81 to Tamp library there, alighted, and boarded 168 all the way to Woodlands interchange. Then, walked around 5-10mins to RP. Sigh, it's gonna be a daily routine soon...
Reached RP, went to Agora Hall for configuration. Not bad, they had movies for people to watch while waiting for their laptops to be configured. They were showing Ip Man! Nice ah that show! Hahaha. Tmd, wait around 4hours for configuration. Don't know what they doing inside also. My laptop also no porn ah! 4hours so long. After that, I forgot where we went.

Ytd, nua-ed at home till after dinner, then went to TM with Shann, Alex, Alan and Philbert. Shann and Alex wanted to buy lanyard, so went there. After that, went Ehub slack, ate Subway. Then nowhere go, went home.

And today, i stayed home all day again, and realised how fast time is flying. Man, how i hope i can turn back time. Soon, freedom's gonna be over, it's back to schooling life, but i'm sure it's totally different from Seconday school life. When school starts, usual clique's gonna have new friends, new life. Everything's gonna change, and we won't have time for each other anymore. Hope we won't drift apart that much, hope we'd keep in touch and meet up once in a while or something.
Dec'08-April'09 was the best period of my entire life :)

♥
♥
♥

:)

Laptop!

2009-03-17T00:49:00.008+08:00

Hahaha! I finally got my HP laptop! DIG THAT MICHELLE. Lol.

My red&white mouseee!

And for some entertainment,

My first video call session with Mr Alan Law!

He showed me his 'mountain'!

Then his 'pecs'!

Next, I was bored and read up on hairstyles for guys, which can be transgender.......

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Mr. BANGS! LOL!!!!

Alright, went Simpang Bedok again on Saturday's midnight(i think) with Alex, Alan, Shann and Philbert. Once again, with bicyclesss! The journey there, was daaaamn hilarious. Mr Alan Law couldn't ride a bike properly, falling down three times on the way back. the first time he fell down, he wasn't even supposed to fall! Mr Alex yap free-handedly rode towards Mr Alan Law's bicycle and bua his tyre, Mr Alan law chua sai and fell down in the MIDDLE OF THE ROAD. Lol!
Second time he fell down, its sort of on the road, but more HILARIOUS.
He was riding a mountain bike(cos i changed with him as the bike was a bangla's, got problem one). He was right behind us, and we were worried he fall down and nobody knew, so me and Shann asked him to ride in front of us. To overtake he had to ride to the middle of the road to overtake. But when he was in the middle of the road, there was a motorcycle coming towards our direction, so Mr Shann Koh and I shouted to Mr Alan Law, "Alan, got motor coming!"
So, clever Mr Alan Law turned his head left to see the motorcyclist coming towards him, so naturally his whle bike would turn left when his head is turned left too. So i looked behind atthe motorcyclist too. The next moment i turned back and looked at Mr Alan Law, he was lying flat on the grass patch alrdy. LOL! He kept on leaning left and eventually hit the curb and flew to the grass patch. It made our stomach ached from all the laughing. Hahahah.

The third time i forgot where he fell down, but i can emphasise on the time he tried to jump up the curb with Mr Alex Yap's haro. He tried several times, but all of the times he jumped too early. In the end, when he jumped and the front wheel banged onto the curb, his front tyre gave out a sound: 'pssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssst'. There goes Alex's tyre!

:) :) :)

Life. Is. Boring.

2009-03-12T17:00:00.010+08:00

9thMarch, 5/2'08 class outing to Sentosaaaa!

Outram Park

Mike!

Bimbo! Hahaha

Alex, you ruined my nice shot..

I tried taking over the place of the Merlion, but failed. Lol!

Vivo.

It's been a long road brother.

From left to right: Mr. Don't know what he's doing, Mr. Pudge, Mr. Spiderman, Mr. Bone Fletcher!

10th March, RP enrolment.

Went to RP with Bee and Michelle. The journey to RP was kind of long and boring. When we arrived, took another bus to RP. RP is kinda plain and simple.. Yeah. The damn enrolment took us about 4hours. Total boredom and exhaustion, then went for dinner around 7+ or 8 at some shopping centre in Woodlands. Then went back to Pasir Ris to meet them at the gym. SLacked at Seashell Park, then home.

11th March

Planned to find jobs at Ehub/Downtown with Bee, Alex and Shannon. Met up for dinner at SanDing. Then walked over to Ehub, asked a few places like Kbox and ExplorerKid for jobs. Filled up application forms. Then went for pool, after that didn't know where to go. Then they suggested went cycling, so we did. But i don't have a bike, so we "borrowed" one from the Bangla's house, which is Shann's neighbour. Hahaha. Sorry Bangla. Then went to Alex's house to get his bike, saw Irman, Ashraf and Ridhuan at the void deck. From around 12, we sat down and talked rubbish with them. Amazingly, time flew, it was alrdy 2+ when we wanted to leave. Those memories we talked about in secondary school, it gives me chillllls. Secondary school is still the most memorable..

Yeah, three of us felt hungry, so we cycled to Simpang Bedok in the middle of the night. Okay, was quite far, but it was definitely worth it :) The Roti John is fantasticcccccc. Then, cycled back to Pasir Ris. Cycled past Alan's block, but we shouted him to come out to his window since his room light was still on at 4+am. He came down, chatted a while, then went home.

Today, i woke up around 4. LOL. Don't know where i'll be going later. Won't get to see beeeeee.
I wnna buy the HP lappy!

Lapppppy! Pixon!

2009-03-02T01:35:00.007+08:00

Haven't been updating properly since looong time ago. Lol.
But, i'm really lazy to update what's going on for the past few weeks, all i could say is i found a job! But a job with no basic pay, full-commissioned -.- Nvm, try my luck and gain some experience along the way (:

Went to Pulau Ubin last Saturday with Bee, Alex, ALan, Shannon and Phil. Went cycling around the island, was quite fun but damn tiring. The scenery there, man it's awesome. The trees, the flowers, the animals. Hahaha. Saw a cobra along the way too. Was hoping to see wild boars but didn't manage to. It started raining on and off but eventually the weather became quite okay.

Group photo.

Group photo without Bee. Lol.

xoxo

It's really beautiful there.

The really really high and scary tower.

The very deep well. Lol.

Way back to Changi.

HAHAHAHA

1stMarch!

Went to work again ytd, around Tampines block 742. Starhub CableTV door to door promoter, seems quite easy but the preaching is damn difficult because i have no experience in psychoing ppl at all. Lol. But ah, some customers damn guailan, some damn cute, some damn retarded. I shall start with the guailan one first.

It was the first day of work(orientation and training actually). One senior brought me along to see how preaching is done. We went to knock on one particular door in an HDB flat around Tampines. No answer. Rings bell. No answer. Knocks again. Then, when we decided to leave for another unit, an old man shouts 'WHAT', then before we could finish our sentence saying "Hi, we're from StarHub.", he slams the damn door at us. Ass! Think he was halfway through making love. LOL.

Cute and retarded ones, met them ytd. One uncle damn cute, i ring bell, he open door very slowly, i see his face i wnna laugh alrdy. his specs like hanging halfway his nose, then he look at me with a very blur expression saying "Huh, what you want" in a very low voice. Before i could finish saying "Hi i'm from StarHub.", i started giggling. When he "Huh" me i "huh" him back. Damn funny ah the situation. Lolol. Oh and, there was two units, scary ah, kena splash paint. Lol.

Painttttt.

Slacking during work. LOL!

Forgot to post pics for CSS the other day, here's two. Lol.

Guess who,

Yours truly (:

Alright, update another day.

And Happy Belated Birthday TGX!
Bro, you're 18 alrdy. Start behaving like one la. Lol. Better get serious in life especially when school starts. Don't fool around anymore. Wish you all the best whereever you go, and don't forget me. Haha.

Dude, your actions really irks me. Please, don't go around begging for people whom aren't even close to you in the first place for the trust. Whoever trusts you is literally an idiot. Stop going around playing with girls' feelings, or flirting them when you have a GODDAMN GIRLFRIEND. Dog.

2009-02-25T00:10:00.001+08:00

Happy 1st month to Beeeeee! Although its a little too late.

I love you! (:

Valentines, and CLASS OUTING (:

2009-02-15T03:26:00.004+08:00

Happy (belated) Valentines' Day to you bee!

Thanks for the v'day present bee, i love you (:

Alright, Feb23rd, 5/2 '08 class outing at Sentosa, all who can make it pleaseeeee come. If not I'll hunt you down. Meet 10am at White Sands control station, or those who are late meet 11am at Harbour Front control station!

Go FaceBook for more info!

I know far too many things I shouldn't know. Fuck.

2009-02-13T02:42:00.005+08:00

Why must my fucking r/s always be interfered by a fucker. Hah, all I want is honesty. Is it that difficult?

Valentine's is coming!

2009-02-12T17:29:00.005+08:00

Laaaazy to update. Bee ask me to update. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Have been slacking(still) around these few days, but we went for jobs interviews on Tuesday! Have to wait around 2weeks before they'll call, but I doubt they will. Lol. Valentine's is coming, and I took a peek at Bee's gift for me, she keep scream scream scream. LOL.

Gonna go look around for things for Bee later, but I have totally no idea what to get for her. Plus what she got me is something she did with her hands, but me..... Hahaha. Okaaay, Shannon Koh is rushing me alrdy. Blog a lil more later at night or some other day. Bye!

Hope you wouldn't let me down again (:

Love you to the max :D

2009-02-12T17:23:00.003+08:00

My blur Bee forgot his blog password. Huahuahua. (:

Let's see whether I should tell him anot. Hahahahs! That sotong :D

I'm done with his Valentines' Day present& since he saw the half-completed one, so might as well I just show him the complete one which I've done it just now in the wee hours. I still think that it's so plain. Bahhh~ ):

That lazy bum is lazy to blog, and I guess he doesn't know that I'm here now (:

Here to say,

Bee, I love you!
Don't forget friday& saturday plans! :D

My handsome Valentine (:

Bored to the max.

2009-02-06T16:51:00.003+08:00

I've got nothing much to blog about. Feb2-4 was chalet, at Costa Sands. Ate, sleep, Gx being horny, played, sang, ran about, bombed the toilet and many more stuff we did. Chalet passed in a blink of an eye, so fast so fast. Had much fun during chalet, probably not gonna hang out as often as the present when school starts for us, cos we're all going to different schools. Talking about that, I got posted to RP, Aerospace Avionics. Welcome to Woodlands yeah. Lol.

Unhappy stuff happened recently, due to the same old thing, same old fucker. I guess I seriously know too much stuff I shouldn't know, just blame it on me being such a busybody. I won't be such a busybody in future (: Yeah, I guess nobody knows how it feels like deep inside. Nobody. But yes, thank you for making me smile all the time, but whenever such things happens or stuff that are told to me, its disheartening you know. I hope none of these will happen again. Baaaah.

Anyway, thanks to all my bros, especially 'BackStreetBoy' Shannon Koh Jia Hao for making me laugh. And stupid gay Alex. Stop being so horny. And Alan Law who claims he's Zidov Akuma. Pui!

Just woke up kinda face.

Bee, I hope none of all those things will happen again. Its difficult for you to gain back my trust, cos of you know what reasons. But yah, I just wnna tell you, its really heart breaking to find out myself what happened. To you I don't know why you wnna do such things, maybe is cos you're afraid I would get angry, but did you think about the outcome if you told me? I wouldn't be more angry if you told me rather than lie to me. But nevertheless, its all over, I sincerely hope nothing like this will happen again, and you wouldn't break those 3 promises. This is gonna be the last chance I'm giving you. Still, I love you (:

Asleep asleep asleep. (:

2009-02-04T23:17:00.003+08:00

Bee is asleep (:
After he sent me home, other than on& off replying messages& waking up for dinner, almost the rest of the time, he's sleeping. Seems like I'm updating much more than he do :X Lol. That lazy bum...

I guess I'm gonna wake him up anytime =/

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See you tomorrow bee (:
*Wink*

( Bee's so charming when he winks, awww :DDD )

Mine, once again (: Iloveyou.

Lazybum asleep.

2009-01-30T18:28:00.002+08:00

Bee is sleeping beside me now, yes, soundly asleep. Guess he's too tired already. When he's awake, we're gonna meet (bangs)Michelle& the guys.

Super bored. Michelle's just over the bridge, nearnearnear :D

P.S.
His temperature seems to be quite high, wonder if it's because he's asleep or he's having a fever. Pray hard it's not the second one.

* I just got a shock from him, he woke up but went back to sleep. Phew~ :D

Addicts of Love.

2009-01-30T03:19:00.002+08:00

Lazy bum Bee is super lazy again. He said he's gonna blog but now he changed to tomorrow/ maybe later in the day. I believe he's gonna drag again. Lol.

Bee bee bee, I'm gonna spend 3days2nights with you very soon! :D Excited ehs?
Let Monday arrive faster!

Hiakhiakhiak.
See you later in the day uhs. Off to bed ! :D

Addicts of love :D

BabyTOUCH(:

2009-01-26T01:20:00.003+08:00

HuaHuaHua! I looooove my girlfrienddddddddd. Oh and she took my _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ home the other night and I only found out half way while sending her home! Omg. And I put it my pocket after that! Okay I doubt nobody will know what it is.

Beeeee, I know I always dota, but to kill time ma, time never die, I die in DotA jiu got. Lol! You're tired alrdy, half dead on the phone! Better go sleep! Now now now! Wednesday can see you alrdy! Bee, stretch lehhhhh! LOL.

Strong uh! Hahaha.

Bee, go sleep now (:

Skin done. (:

2009-01-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

Lazy bum B..
I'm done with your skin ;D But you this lazy bum is so super lazy to blog, so I'll blog for you. Hiakhiakhiak!

Your dad just told you something for CNY uhs, what can "fool around but don't screw around", that's all I heard on the phone. LOL. Huahuahua~ Remember what he say uhs. Don't screw around horhs!

B, your dota so important lo! :D

Shall end with..

I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee you!